"i'm not here....this isn't happening..............."
WELL, i haven't posted anything here in a very long time...so I think that maybe i will just redo the site agian....i'll probably clear out all of the entries since so much stuff has happened that i'd rather just start over from scratch as if this was never here.
well...life is crazy. but i'm not gonna talk about it really...right now i'm just going to concentrate on doing some things to the site...then i'll get back to the whole posting thing..
Thank you, Oh Mysterious Signer of Guestbooks...heh.
well. i know i haven't done ANYTHING on the site in a while. but i have an excuse. i am currently working on the new getitonsc.tripod.com. No no, not the sucky one. The good one. Think scunderground.com but with more updates (or at least more than there used to be...i think it has "changed ownership" if you will).
Good news. I can't say it, but it's so Good! ...well, at least maybe...nevermind.
oh oh. i'm getting my car back tomorrow morning! aren't you excited?...thought so. gosh my mood has improved. i blame the whole dog incident on my dad's car. because i was driving that. and i never hit anything in my car...and stuff runs out in front of me like every 12.3 seconds.
well...i guess i'm gonna go work on the other site some more. check it out. if you into that sort of thing.... ;-)
i'm going to try not to cuss. but i just hit a dog. i am upset. i was on my way to school to make up a test. and i was late. but i was not speeding. i saw something run across the road so i slowed down. i looked and it was a dog. but then another dog ran out into the road from the other side. i was going about 50-55. i slammed on the brakes. i swurved. the dog cowered back...in the same direction that i swurved. i heard it hit. i freaked out. i was probably going like 15-25 at this point. i did all i could...there were huge skid marks and stuff.....i got out...shaking. and i walked over to the dog......................... it was just laying there. it was still alive....it was wimpering....it had a little mark above it's eye...no more. it's eyes were open...but it was not moving at all. at the only nearby house...there were no cars and...i guess no one was home and i didn't know what to do. there was nothing i could do. i had to get to school to make up my test. pacing...got in car. shaking. i decided i would make up my test and come back. i came back...the dog had died.
i'm a fucking horrible person.
oddly..."black" by pearl jam came on the radio (i have no tape/cd player at the moment) and i used to love this song when i was a kid and i started screaming a long with it. ugh. why did it have to be so cute :**(
"i know someday you'll have a beautiful life i know you'll be a star...in somebody else's sky...why can't it be, can't it be mine...."
so. if i want to have tail lights in my car i have to turn off my cd player. this is awesome. oh...and when i turn the switch for the dome light...the light on the dash that says the trunk is open comes on. top notch.
so...i meant it when i said sign the guestbook...
i think i'll probably do away with my own section on the "webcam madness" page...as it is creepy...it'll all be reserved for benjiman...heheh.
in What the H news...yesterday was the weirdest day.
i think i am starting to lean more towards the idea of being "partners in crime" with chris. as opposed to simply his "sidekick." I must say i do enjoy being Delilah's little brother though.
it's always awesome whenever you get to the point where you like someone so much that everday conversation feels like constant rejection because you can tell just how little they care about you.
So, i don't know if people are actually visiting my page...but the counter certainly is going up...So if there are actual, real people visiting the page, please sign the guestbook (italics means i'm begging).
So it's been a while since i've actually written a full post. This is due largely to the fact that on my computer in my room i ccleared off the Whole hard drive and installed a Unix operating system...meaning i won't be able to get online on that computer for some time...(like college..or this summer).
I think Taylor and Justin are awesome.
I wish i didn't have to work tonight. or tomorrow night. then i could go see our.fallen.hero.
Last night me and Taylor and Justin (i hate saying blah blah and I....it should be blah blah and me dammit) anyways...and then Chris a little later, all hung/hanged out yesterday...and it was fun...and then me and chris went to courtyard...and i met jeff, who i had kinda met before, but no one ever remembers me kinda like in american beauty...heh...
but it was fun.
well i am going to try and find something to eat.
Ha, i just remembered this weird dream i had last night... :-P
i have stuff to talk about, not "exciting" stuff...but stuff nonetheless:
so i did it! i played benofest...wowee...it was actually kinda fun in that really embarassing sort of way...it's kinda like...how some people think it's a thrill to get scared, like really scared...well this was kind of the thrill of nervousness and the crazy weirdness of me playing at a show, escpecially a show that included bands like johnny welfare and the like...but again, it was fun. although....any goodness was kinda overshadowed by the fact that i didn't get to play with kelley...
i won first place in an art contest! now, granted i'm not even really sure what i had entered in the contest...but i still won first place...so yay...i hope i won money, we'll see.
i'm going to USC for less than free! - again, yay.
so...i show up early for school today right...like 7:30 early...and turns out...it's a day that i don't have to be there until 11:30( ! ) now i am back at home...i hope i have enough gas to make it back to school...let alone back home again...
"cuz if you wanna start..to move up the charts...then expression is a big part of it" "a big part of it!"
i love that part.
well...i suppose i am going to go use this time to watch the news. speaking of news...in other news...i think i'm going to give up entirely on trying to start relationships...cuz it's silly...and i'm ti-red of it...
Wish someone could help me (since i can't help myself). I want to forget about it for now....for 2 days. (frowny face)
Kelley...what do you want for your birthday? I want to do something nice for you. But I'll just feel stupid...
"just the smell of the summer can make me fall in lo-o-ove"
S-I-G-H
driving is hard with no rearview mirror and stuff in your eyes + sunglasses.
i finally made a driving mistake after everyone almost killing me everyday. i almost changed lanes into some guy....but it was only because (well and the no rearview mirror thing didn't help) we were in a 40mph zone that was one lane, he was behind me and he was gettin his "as-close-to-my-bumper-as-possible" on...now...a lane opens to the right for getting on the interstate...and i didn't exactly pull directly into it (it was not necessary anyway) and as i was pulling into it he tried to speed around me..it was kind of both of our faults...except less mine ;-)
"huh oh down low huh oh uh oh down lo-o-ow"
gotta go to school soon...i have a gov'ment test and i forgot (sorta) to do my homework.
crap...i need to send a room deposit to USC...wish i could get some money out of the bank (AHEM...)
D-R-A-M-A
if cars didn't need gas it would be a lot more convenient. taxes are silly. the post office is gross.
